Sometimes I don't think I realise just what a difference
I have on these little girls who come into my studio
with hopes and dreams and expectations.
I don't know what they want from my time.
I don't know what they think of me.
The other day i had a little girl very confused as she
couldnt figure out where i slept as i
didnt have a bed,
turned out she thought i lived in the studio.
Last night I came home and I couldn't sleep thinking about
a little 6 year old girl in one of my classes who I don't think I treated in the best way I could.
She's distracted in the class and always looks for
excuses to get out of doing the steps,
mainly because I don't think she connects with the way that I teach.
So this week I got really stern with her and no patience for every story
that had nothing to do with anything or made up problem that she had
And I think to myself, this little girl isn't connecting with me
but instead if trying to build a bridge I disconnected her further.
Today I had another little distracted little girl in my class.
She can't stay still, she can't listen, she's always on the go,
it's tricky because I try and teach them the
importance of silence and stillness in ballet as much as movement.
My assistant today was on top of her trying to gain
her attention and keeping up on her every
lapse of concentration,
and I told her. 'Let's just leave her alone today, as long as
she isn't disturbing the others let her be distracted in her own little world'
And at the end of the class the little girl came and
gave me the biggest hug and told me she loved me,
and I'll admit I was shocked it came out of the blue.
This little girl who makes my time so difficult actually
enjoys being in the studio,
she even appreciates me as a teacher
and i dont know what i did in particular to make her feel
such gratitude today.
These little children teach me something
new every time I see them,
and I think of the ballet teachers that I had at their age
and what knowledgable people they seemed to me
and although they didnt alter my life in
a life changing way,
they did make me the person i am today.